Today, I woke up early and found my way to nearest McDonald’s Store for breakfast. The store is hardly 400 meters distance from the place I reside. This is good for morning walk and to burn some calories before you refill. I am not an early riser due to odd working hours but sometimes I make it my duty to. Today’s is one of ‘sometimes’ day and here is my learning for today and thought to make it in writing as well.
I had plans to sip a cup of tea from somewhere nearby area and go back home, have another nap instead I made courage and dragged myself to store. When I reached the store from outside it seemed like I am little too early for breakfast but it was already 9:30 AM and since I was close enough why not go inside and try my luck? As soon as I opened door I saw a man in his late forties sat at table and a baby girl on the table but none of them seemed to be eating anything or might have eaten in the duration of last 30 minutes but who knows? Another couple sitting at corner having finished their breakfast and looked in the process of leaving.
I asked for a light breakfast meal to the person at counter who had just appeared when I stepped in and settled in a corner. While sipping coffee because that is what lasted longer than any part of meal! A thought occurred to me that if I follow this routine everyday wouldn’t I be happy or say contented? (I don’t mean lunches & dinner would be here and that too alone) Going to work, being recognized for the best efforts that you put in or doing something that justifies your role in the organization which everyone is aware of, having personal life full of entertainment does not require anything more………Does this really help us live a better life? Well that very moment I saw outside McDonald’s store three strangers, I considered three of them as friends, a girl in her early twenties and two guys in mid twenty and were about to enter store. My thoughts started betraying me even cursing me! How in the world do you think you can be happier without sharing your happiness? I said, “Is it necessary to share happiness?” My thought, “Yes, in this way you also realize that someone is there to see a difference”. I asked my thought, “Do you mean these three of people who you and I thought are friends, share their happiness?” My Thought, “In some ways they do”. “How can you say that?” I interrupted. “For that you need to give me enough space to think” My thought replied. I was like, “???” Anyway soon I will learn double of that!
Every person has a story to tell so do I.
I was at twelfth grade at High School College and had a crush on a girl from a same residential area in the town. Well technically I had crush on her two three years before that but never felt like telling anyone. But since I was at high school and I had this insecurity of someone good looking guy in her college might propose her and she finding no idea about my feeling for her would say yes to that guy. So I had to proceed with my own ideas. My sister Sarah (Not blood relations though) who is her best friend had to take an initiative to tell her that I liked her best friend. I told my sister that I like her best friend and her reactions were, “oh, how is that possible, how can you like Natalie? Well buddy forget that she is out of your reach! Her dad is a very big industrialist and look at you who is nothing I mean nothing!I said I will do anything it takes to reach her as long as I am alive, Sarah well, good for you but I think you should forget about her as she is my best friend and I don’t want to get involved in this.” So my sister refused to help in this matter and I was not so ok but had to be ok with it. (I hated the way my so called sister compared my liking for with her father’s practical accumulation)
Soon news started spreading in the house and so forth and I was left with nothing but a boring irony of thinking not about her. Every member of the house who I respected warned me of doing such a mistake but I didn’t listen to any of them. I started messaging her secretly through a social media site and never received a response though. It was mid-winter and I was wearing my shorts and no sweater on and was shivering a lot, it was one day just after I had sent a text to her; I was asked to bring some grocery stuff from a nearby store. I remember the day too it was Sunday and 4th day of Jan 2009, morning around 6:54 am sun rays were just started showing up on the road and I heard a familiar sound of a vehicle and my heart started beating faster and yes it started beating faster when I realized! And there she was going home from somewhere I don’t know and was smiling at me!! Look she was smiling, a pleasing smile and she looks right at me no one behind or aside me, just at me and pass by! Well I could not help my joy anymore I was at the seventh heaven for that very moment I thought that I got everything I had lost in this world and I did want it to last as long as possible. I too looked at her and smile and seemed like communication completed happily! She parks her scooter in front of her house and I stood somewhere 100 feet away near a house which is shaped like a hut, happily and unable to make any move or utter a word but just stare at her. For a few minutes we both stared at each other after some time she went inside her house and I too had to head towards my grocery store…..